That's Why I Hate Birthdays

When Bapak gave me his old blazer, I cried violently with absolutely no expression on my face. My tears leaked from my tearduct uncontrollably as I tried to figure out what I was actually feeling to have triggered this burst of emotion.
I just realized that all my things are hand-me-downs or second-hands. I never had a problem with this but last night proved otherwise. "Don't be ungrateful Afiq, don't be selfish Afiq." I scolded myself. I guess I've been keeping this little emotion in a little box and locked it in a secret cupboard.
I hate bithdays.
Birthdays is the only day when you think of yourself and self-centredness is the root of misery. Happiness is selflessness in contributing and focusing thoughts and energy into something we feel passionate about.
That's why I hate birthdays.


Paan Lee said...

don't be sad. at least u still have people that love u-your family.. the biggest birthday present i suppose.

Indah Cuma Seketika.... said...

Kita harus bersyukur....walau cuma hanya ucapan Selamat Ulang Tahun....atau cuma hadiah barang bekas....kerna lebih baik dari tidak ada sama sekali...

Mr NAEmnzr said...

sy rasa byk jugak org kt luar sana,
yg rasa spt kamu!


Nite Garden said...

Hey Afiq, let kak nite bake cheese cake for you, yeah?

Happy birthday adik.. :)

Afiq Deen said...

I deserve to throw a little tantrums here and there don't u think?

are u really...? I had cheese cake last night. Thanks for the thought though. : )