I've been blogging for three years now. Yesterday I read my past entries and realized that this blog have hurt many people. It hurt my estranged mom, my father and most importantly, it caused termendous dilemma to myself.
My blog gets 500 hits everyday and every month, I will get a dozen e-mails. Almost half of these emails are hate mails. I collected enemies with this blog and every week my car will get egged. Even the commenters underestimates me on a regular basis. Some think of me as a hypocrit and others see me as an ambitious young man who will realize later the world ain't that full of hopes and dreams after all. These people see themselves in me, as the younger impressionable version of themselves. They look at themselves today and can only see the misery that engulfs their hopes and trampled on their dreams.
These people contacted me and told me how I resemble them when they were younger. They asked me about my dreams and hopes before telling me they wished for the same things before. And then they'll tell me how I should be prepared to be bombarded with frustration and failures.
They told me that 'people like us' will never lead successful lives. "Who are these people?" I asked them.
"People like us who reads ID mags, listen to jazz and have sophisticated taste in everything." they answered.
"I'm nothing like that." I refuted.
"That's what we said when we were your age!" They laughed.
You know who you are. All 23 of you. Oh yes, you're not the only one.
I'm sick and tired listening to all your 'forecasting'. I don't want to entertain people like you anymore. You guys make me sick to my stomach andI still don't see why you have to belittle me with your 'vast experience' with life. For that reason, and also for a fact that most of my readers are emo girls and self proclaimed fags, I'm going to close this blog and lead my life bloglessly.
This will be my last entry.
Thank you all for reading and participating.
To those 23 post-Afiqs, I hope you realize that you are sore losers.
To my brothers, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends and ex-girlfriends, we still have Facebook to communicate with eachother.
I guess this is it.
Good bye and god bless.