Because I blog a lot about how NOT to be gay, some readers confide with me about their struggles of resisting this alternative lifestyle. With all those readers, I pointed out to them that the first and most important stage of abandoning the gay lifestyle forever is to first acknowledge their subject of lust: men.
Most of the YM-ing and Windows Massenging I had with these readers are often sad, confusing or Dr.Phil-ish but one particular guy stuck out from the rest.
Afiq: You like men so you think you're gay?
Yus: No, I KNOW I'm gay.
Afiq: Have you ever had sex with a guy?
Yus: No, but I think about it all the time.
Afiq: Gay is an action, of being sexually involved with a guy. How are you gay when you never even had sex with a guy yet?
Yus: I'm sure I'm gay but I'm afraid that I will lead an abnormal life. I want to have a wife, children and lead a happy life with a family. Being gay is so depressing, it feels so... empty.
Afiq: It's not like you're denied of having a 'normal' and happy life. You know some people are addicted to smoking and some people hate smoking. We all have our own demons. Relax, the first thing you should do is not associate yourself with the word GAY.
Yus: OK. So I'M NOT GAY
Afiq: YES, YOU'RE NOT GAY
Yus: I'm a damn good chef who likes to watch WWE.
Afiq: You're a chef? Wow~
Yus: Yeah, I'm a chef at a 5 star chinese restaurant.
Afiq: What's your best dish?
Yus: People always compliment me on my Peking dick
Yus: DUCK! Peking DUCK.
Yus: Fuck! U and I are so close together!
Afiq: U and I what...?
Yus: omfg. I'm so gay.