Afiq's Labyrinth

"Of course lah you're single! You don't even go out of the house!"

I nodded. I will sound like a guy in denial if I carry on with this conversation. I hung up. Merajuk.

It's true. I'm very indoorsy. I don't go out much. My social life is a fresh dead dog by the roadside. I spend my days editing videos, rendering them, reading news, watching films and short films, reading and watching tutorials and everything else that doesn't require me to step out of the house. But the scariest thing of all is I do not feel an ounce of guilt for not 'socialising' enough.

Maybe I'm stuck in a rut for so long that I brainwashed myself of thinking that I don't need human contact to get anything done. This is me in front of the computer monitor learning how to make dollies for less than 50 bucks:

I'm a geek. A nerd at best.

I feel like it's time for me go out more and start leading a colourful (and dramatic?) lifestyle. But how can I start? Even when I do go out to get something done, I tend to retreat to any confined spaces like a toilet cubicle, or an empty shopping complex store room.

What the fish is wrong with me? Why am I like this?

How can I start figuratively immerse myself with the colours of the world?

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