A Fool in Love

All my life I was made to believe that I have a mission and that mission kept me disciplined and driven to do what I was told to do. Now that mission recedes as my understanding of life increases, somehow, along with it I lost my will to be self-disciplined and driven.

This happened 2 years ago. Since then my journey of self discovery begun. I learnt that when passion drives me, I let reason hold the reins. The only problem is, I'm still stuck in a world I built on false pretense.

I then decided to finish architecture anyway so I could at least get hold of a degree. I don't hate architecture. I love architecture. I can talk about buildings for hours on end but I don't find designing buildings stimulating. It doesn't excite of thrill me. What can I say, I'm a fool in love. What can I do?

You know what? It's time to try out Solat Istikharah. I heard it's effective.

A long conversation with God is long overdue anyway.

5 comments:

as easy as ABC said...

well afiq just do the best in ur life..do the thing that u wanna do becoz we learn for life and life doesnt choose what it wants to throw at you.. if u feel like u r now not in d rite "luv" u still have other choices that waiting 4 u..do d best in everything n let god decideS what is d best 4 ur life..=)

Afiq Deen said...

its as easy as ABC eh?

thank u for ur encouragement!

ps. i know who you are btw.. i've always known

RITZ CHEWAN said...

Atcherly I think that God gives us all guidance (2:256)(30:30).

Man decides his own path that he will take (14:22).

Each person "WILL" take resposibility for his own actions (35:18).

Wallahu'alam

RITZ CHEWAN said...

Therefore life is what we make of it (9:20)(13:11).

Afiq Deen said...

are those surahs and ayats.. how very peculiar...

im accustomed to Yaseen (1-4) not 14:4.

but heh, a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.

I heart you Will Shakesmypeare