I was devastated when I checked the results yesterday. My film 4 Perangkat Ajal didn't make it to the top 10 spot in Astro Kirana's Short Film Competition. Dang! It was worth a shot anyways.
Now I feel like my internal organs are stooping lower than its usual position. I'm saddened but not sad, angered but not angry.
Check out the finalists' films here.
All of them were pretty damn good. They truly deserved being in the top 10. What's that you say? You think I'm pretending to be nonchalant about all this? You think I'm putting up a happy face to hide my dissapointment?
I can't say I'm not dissapointed because I know for a fact that I am. It's a kind of dissapointment that didn't bother me though. I know, weird. My head is not syncing to the pace of my heart. My head is too pre-occupied with:
1. Me Myself and Madba
3. Play Rewind
I thought this would be my big break but I guess I've to do the 'breaking' myself. I mean, look up any academy award directors and you will find out that none of them won any awards when they first started filmmaking. (yes, this trivial fact comforts me)
What's for certain is I want to make good and entertaining films so bad that losing this doesn't really make a difference.
But it would've been a blast I had won....