Here's an entry I wrote on 16th of September 2000 about what happened when I was nine years old. When I was nine years old, I simply wrote: I hate MUTHU!!!! in my journal.
Dear Journal,
I woke up angry with Muthu and his calves and his theatrics. I woke and remembered my teary journey back home. I remembered how I stomped my way back to my room, jumped extra high onto my bed and cried loudly so everyone could hear. That was the point anyway, so everyone around me will nod and tell me that it's not my fault.
Everyone around me thought I was genuinely crying so they closed the door and let me be. I stopped crying loudly and reached for the mini Encyclopedia, anticipating Bibik to rush to the door to check whether or not I killed myself. After an hour of anticipating, my anticipation pespired and dissolved back to emotions. I kept quiet and stared at the ceiling. The only sound I heard was cuckoo-cuckoo, Bibik was feeding Bapak's chickens at the backyard. There was excessive saliva in my mouth from all the crying so I gulped. The gulp got stuck in my throat for a whole day. I grabbed a thesaurus and checked 'gulp'. 'Sob'. I was sobbing. I sobbed.
It was the first of many sobs to come. On that day, October the 23rd, I lost Jason Ng to Muthu. He was my first best friend until Muthu came along and persuaded him that the reason why he didn't pass his PTS was because of me. He befriended a stupid malay who sucked all the knowledge from him. After the long school break, I was skipped a grade from standard 3 to standard 5 and was acknowledged by all teachers in the school as one of the three prodigal children. I was comforted by this knowledge. I may not have any friends anymore in this class but at least, at least I'm regarded as the smartest one here.
Every day during recess I will eat my meals as near possible to Jason but not too near to expose my intention. The daily 3 metre proximity for 10 minutes continued for three months. As far I was concerned Jason was still my bestfriend. He was just brainwashed by Muthu and he will wake up from his dream any moment now. Any moment now.
On one fateful recess, he left an exercise book on the canteen table and went off to play hide and seek with Muthu, Yvonne, Ivan and Jeremy. I picked it up his exercise book and double cheked it. Jason Ng, Bahasa Inggeris. It's fate. I will give the exercise book back to Jason and Muthu's seal will break! What a brilliant plan! But they're playing hide and seek. The only time I will catch Jason alone is when... when he arrive to school. He is always 30 minutes early. I'll wake up extra early tomorrow and tell Umi that I've a school programme to attend to tomorrow morning so I will have to be there an hour earlier.
Tomorrow never came. The night before Tomorrow, I was told by Umi that I will be changing school because Bapak was transfered to Sandakan.
I kept Jason Ng's Bahasa Inggeris exercise book to this day. His last assignment was:
Describe your best friend.
"My best friend's name is Arfik Deen. I friended him because he is smart and likes to read books every morning before class starts. We like to exchange food during recess. Once, I ackcidentaly gave him pork but he ate it anyway. He is a malay so he prays every afternoon in the surau. He likes to wear white tshirt after school and a silver bracelet his father gave him. He likes to say "Jom!" and "Alamak" eventoh we speak english with each other. He eats more than me but he is thinner than me. He looks like a chinese but cannot speak chinese. He is in a different class now but everyday during recess I will sit very near to his table. He doesn't want to talk to me anymore since Muthu scold him last year. He still reads every morning alone in front of the school gates. His favourite book is The Last Unicorn."
Deen (signature)
21 comments:
I love this entry dude.. Seriously. If buat iklan by yasmin ahmad sure meletup. The friendship which last forever. Still keep in touch with jason ?
best friends are hard to come by, but easy to be separated. I mean, geographically. *sigh*
but really, if only either of you start a conversation... @.@
Out of topic, you have your genius talent since you were a child... :O
haha lolz
do u still keep in touch with jason?
wow....
thats just precious...
I've been to more than 10 schools so no, I didn't keep in touch with him. We didn't have handphones back then : D
There are so many Jason Ngs in Malaysia. I cannot even remember his face.
wowh..u had a journal? i mean..at the age of 9?!!
I used to have a diary. It's from my auntie.
But i didnt write.
I tore them.
I made origami.
Hang it to the window~
Awesome..
thas is some writing skill for a nine year old to have..!very cute
ZOMG , gilew touching , u have to find him back
yeah i totally agree with alfred , maybe u should make a short film out of this , a simple ad maybe
and who knows jason might just be watching
eskusme kauru, it's afred not alfred.. hahaha
I remember hiding a classmate's pencil case when I was in standard one, it was just for fun.
My friends and I hid it in my schoolbag and we planned to give him back on the next day.
On the next day, we were told that his family had moved to Japan.
I kept his pencil case for years just in case he gets back. But he never did. Even if he did, I never knew.
The pencil case is gone now and I am always on the lookout for guys named Haikal.
(And I think that was the reason I found your blog at the first place, pre-matric).
i think jason purposely left his book on the table for you to read..
Maybe. Probably. But I think we were to young to scheme such a thing.
R u sure it's not Haikal I know. You know, Haikal Hazman.
if only we could hear the other side of the story from Jason...i think he still remember you as well.
Awww... So touching! =)
hey that was goo.d but did it really come from someone so young?..the writting sounds to good to be true..haha...u ate pork accidently?..ahaha....ok...
Hey, great post.. Sorry I didn't ask for your permission before reccing it on my blog... Hope you don't mind.. (I can remove it if you want). :) Anyways, you have an interesting blog (to put it mildly). :) Take care, and keep blogging. :)
Oh, outrageously sweet. :)
you are a memory.
one that is not easy to forget.
at 9? like that?
and having a story like that?
whoa!
buat short film nak?
skejap, jason is too young to scheme something like alluring u to read his book?
come on afiq, you scheme something too.
u kept a distance with jason. but not too far. so that you still have a link to him. even if its not as close as it use to be.
that is just beautiful. i cried.period.
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