I didn't sleep last night thinking how ignorant I've been about my religion, Islam. I have been adopting the so-called-modernized Islam that I've neglected its rules and regulations. My way of life, the way I think and the way I approach Islam. It had always been my religion, not my way of life. Sure I pray, I fast but there is much more about Islam I've neglected because I thought I can't reach success if I fully practice it.
I've been judging and moderating Islam the way I want it to work. I stood up, basking myself on the morning's sun feeling ashame of what I'd done since puberty.
Surely, there is more than Islam than praying 5 times a day and attending the Friday prayer. Much much more than that. There is more than Islam than covering my aurah. There is more than Islam than its proclamation on my ID card. There is so much more.
I've been praying five times a day, reading Al-Fatihah which I have no I idea what it means. It was only out of habit. I didn't know what I'd memorized and read in the Quran. I have no idea what I'd recite while reading the Yassin in a congregation. Imagine that, I'd been mumbling a foreign language in which I failed to understand for the past 10 years. Truly, I am ashamed.
My intentions or niah had always been materialistic: to be successful and rich, to own an expensive house, to have other people to respect me. What have I contribute to my way of life? to my giver? Have I ever planned to help the ummah?
I have to rethink on how I should proceed with life. On the intentions in which I will spend my heart and soul on. On my life goals. I really have to rethink everything. To go to the roots of everything. I must prevail in this intention. I must.
6 comments:
afiq, aku rasa ko dah dapat hidayah...-azim
sesungguhnya,engkau seolah-olah mengkorek lubang telinga yg salah sepertinya hendak mencari gado.
: p~~~~~
Everytime you pay the zakat, you are contributing to the ummah.
Everytime you wish someone salam, you are wishing them a prosperous life which they, in turn, wish upon others, thus contributing to the ummah.
To seek further understanding through the translations of the Quran is compulsory.
We do not need to learn Arabic to understand the meaning of the Quran, as some teachers insist.
It is the teachings that is important, and not the language.
To have a niat to be sucessful is not wrong. However, to be sucessful and not sacrifice religion, that is what is needed.
Even contemplation is a worthy cause in Islam, especially if you look at our mulut laser leaders who speak before their gray matter finishes processing.
Personally, I hold to the fact that whatever I do will be judged by God, and let God decide, for the world of people is corrupt.
May your path of righteousness be found.
arabic is not just a language, its the language of the heavens. And there are many words that are impossible to be translated into english. The teaching can be misled, so it is important to be a judge ourselves so we're able to critisize and contribute in the development of any field of knowledge governed by the Quran.
arabic is not just a language, its the language of the heavens. And there are many words that are impossible to be translated into english. The teaching can be misled, so it is important to be a judge ourselves so we're able to critisize and contribute in the development of any field of knowledge governed by the Quran.
Arabic is a language to me then, I guess. Just like how Christians claim Aramaic is their language, or the Jews claim Hebraic to be theirs, Arabic was simply the language chosen to present God's words to Muhammad and the Arabs.
But then, we've never actually seen eye to eye on anything about religion, now, have we?
hahaha!
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