Not A Very Happy Raya

I just found out that I was rejected from participating in Tokyo Filmex 2010. Even though I was recommended by highly esteemed film producers, they decided that I was just not good enough. When I saw a Japan number calling me, I was so excited my hands shook involuntarily. Upon pressing the Answer button, a warm voice embraced by nerves and delivered the cold news.

I literally froze. Dread. The neurons in my head menaced and rendered all my nerves unresponsive. After a good 5 minutes of imitating a gargoyle statue, I walked slowly to the nearest bed and cried my heart out.

No one has any idea how badly I want to enter Tokyo Filmex and when I heard that I was recommended to be a part of it (you can only be recommended to get in) I was so excited the thought of immersing myself with visionary filmmakers and their visionary films lullabied my frantic mind to sleep for the past 2 months.

But now. Ergh.

I need time to heal. I need time. I need to heal.

10 comments:

NADDY KZAMAN said...

The time will come for a btter one,insya Allah...=)

Ann Alien said...

All the greats had their pitfalls, Afiq. I know you know that but sometimes it helps me when other people say it foe me. So here I am. All the greats had their pitfalls. All the best!

Afiq Deen said...

Thanks LOADS Ann! I needed that. The international film scene is in a whole new level so I need to gear up and grind more gears if I want to get in.

Anoneemus™ said...

Your time will come, Afiq. You're still young. I bet every single star have gone thru this moment.

Shawal Abd. Rashid said...

Aiyo.. Kesiannya kamu, Afiq. Tak apa, at least some ppl DID recommended your work into that competition. That's gotta mean something, right.

who knows, in the near future, you might ain't hear it from the tokyo fimex, but you got a call from Sundance film festival, or Tribeca, or Cannes... who knows... i'm wishing u all the best in the near future, aight. amin.

RITZ CHEWAN said...

That only means that you are still far away from the point of time time when you bow out and say that "I had a beautiful and illustrious career"... the road is still long as Datuk Sheila crooned... Jangan sampai tua sebelum waktunya...

Miss Aida said...

The difference between those who succeeded and those who did not is the number of times they picked themselves up from their failures.

There's hikmat behind everything Afiq, so perhaps it's not your time. Yet. :)

Keep trying, and insyaallah if that path is meant for you, it will msanifest itself again.

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